June 20, 2008

  • i'm with Klare in the church coffee shop. it's pretty in here... ambiant. is that a word? well, i guess it is now... i had a vanilla cappuccino, and it was pretty amazing. i feel tired, and worn out, and kind of useless. i told God that i was done and that i didn't care what kind of person i was.


    you know what i got?


    a rainbow.


    a full rainbow.


    it isn't fair. He doesn't play the game fair. i have my own strange form of Edward Cullen. only He's alive and exists and fights for me daily.


    it's hard to believe, because i know how unworthy i am.


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    right now, i'm sitting in my living room. the one we lived in when we went to that church. and now one of our favorite families that we'd lost touch with is here. i'm hearing Dreama singing Chris Brown and dancing, Dad and Gary doing their Jewish banter, and waiting for Tam & Ry.  it's seriously like i stepped into a time warp, with all the knowledge and wisdom and growth that i have now.


    this day has been so strange.