December 7, 2008

  • running against the wind; playing the cards you get

    thefall_054current mood: yearning.
    current sounds: hope for the hopeless - a fine frenzy. | my brother's big feet clomping across the floor upstairs. | the clicking. always the clicking.
    current read: new moon by stephenie meyer (again).

     

    i'm getting a new friend for Christmas.

    studio17_pink

     

    well, i mean, i'm going to be making payments for it, and end up paying for most of it. but my parents are paying the first payment on it for me, and then helping me partway with the rest -- since i'm working a small-time, part-time job in smalltown pennsylvania. QVC is a wonderful thing, especially when they do easy payments. my present computer has been asking to be replaced by way of its issues, though i didn't really hope for a change until my parents brought it up to me today. part of me is sad that my presents are discussed now instead of being surprises, but i really do need to grow up sometime, i guess. i am so excited. i've always had a hand-me-down whenever dad would get an upgrade [so i've had like two older computers... one of which was so big and heavy i have no idea how it was considered a laptop] which i never thought was unfair, especially since i didn't have to pay for either of them, plus they were in beautiful shape 'cause dad babies his technology. but i mean, a new one. i am truly thrilling over it. and now i'm going to stop talking about it, because i hate hate hate when people go on & on about things they're getting to the point where it sounds like bragging. i don't ever want to brag, it's stupid.

    work was decent today. plenty of kids since it was a sunday. i got to help them do crafts since it's the holidays and there are a lot more to choose from because Leslie found cute, simple ideas in a magazine -- i love helping kids with activities. part of me really, really wants to be an el-ed major wherever i end up, whenever i end up there. i've had my setbacks but whatever. my life isn't over just because i haven't gotten two and a half years of college under my belt yet. i'm sick of feeling like a failure just because i'm not doing things the "normal", socially acceptable way.

    i don't know what else to write about. no really deep thoughts today. just sort of mental rambling. i can't stop listening to "if i didn't care" by amy adams and lee pace. it hurts me.

     

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