April 16, 2009

• yeahyeah, youre asking for it.

   

  i'm going to sing.
  i have to pray about this.

  the pulling in my heart is making me feel crazy.
  i'm intimidated, shaking in my shoes, knees knocking.

  i'm going to sing.
  forever and ever, amen.

   

  &edit;

  i want to scream until my throat is raw.
  i want to beat my fists on the cold ground.
  i want to run away and never look back.
  i want to cry and rub my eyes until my lids bleed.
  i want to be a skeleton.
  i want to be reckless and stupid and self-indulgent.
  i want it all to make sense.

   

  i am so angry.
  i am so resentful.
  i am so selfish.

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